Hey, okay I said I would't try to do these too often. Though there are people who send at least six journals a month so, whatever. I think you all won't mind being spammed by me a via journal form.
Just a heads up, this might be one of the longest journals I've written in a while and there may or may not be cursing and mature subjects for those of you who are sensitive to it.
Until very recently I've been a depressing rut at home. Funny thing is I didn't notice until I actually got out the house to have a real conversation. And actually be heard without being interrupted half a dozen times. You have no idea how good that feels after months of little to no speaking without being judged or lectured. Actual conversation! That's something we take for granted. This is a big deal since I have always had problems speaking in general. You would think the people you can speak the most freely with is your own family. But after being around them so much when they're tired, annoyed or pissed off; there are times it just feels easier to talk total strangers then my family. If you're reading this, thanks again, Aurora.
It's one of the things I'm working on. Along with eventually getting tout of my parents' house. For those of you who don't know. I'm currently unemployed and help watch my younger sibling in exchange for room and board. My role as a caretaker has been feeling more and more redundant. Seems no matter what I do I will either be usurped or corrected on even the slightest action or verbal thought. Leading to little to no point to me being out of my room in the first place. Over all I can't live like this much longer. So it's more important then ever that I find a way out for good. It's going to be long and hard process but in the end it will be worth it.
As for activity on-line I'm taking it a few steps at time during days off. One was leaving the yahoo group, Shark_Ground. Before discovering DeviantArt, this was one of my on-line havens. A place I got back into one of my favorite shows from childhood, Street Sharks. Sadly at some point, the group had been taken over by porn adds. I'm not against anyone enjoying porn or anything slightest bit sexual. I just didn't want to be bombarded by e-mails about house wives doing oral or hookup sites that might be shady at best. For something a bit more positive. I am looking ways to make having a real life easier. Along with hopefully getting more art out as well.
Speaking of which, I try to do at least a few picks and journals for Shark Month, August. I don't know if this is true but apparently Shark Week is starting as early as July, 5th. I suspect Animal Planet is just doing this to get more viewer ship during one of their best known weeks. This is great because this means more time to celebrate my favorite predator. But it also makes me wonder if we're adding too much hype to Shark Week. I can see it getting unpopular because of making it sound grander then it really is. Hopefully this turns out well over all.
Lastly, I want to get my hair cut. Originally, I was letting it grow to be able to get it cut for St. Baldrick's. So far, it doesn't look like any events are happening in town anytime soon. And I'm getting tire of having hair that is just going to make me feel more over heated this summer. I'm going to get it cut by a professional again. Hopefully whoever cuts my hair has gentle hands. And looks forward to doing something besides the generic hairdo that's been done the past couple times I've gone. I'm still deciding but I know I want something short and cute. Hopefully with some dye on the longest part remaining.